the best summer ever; because of you.
My first summer with you, was also the best.
For I learnt how to love, and how love feels like.
I had my first kiss, my first touch, my first hugs.
I learnt that to love someone, you learn to let them go.
I learnt that to love someone, you learn to let yourself go too; for them.
whispers of summer
her story
friends
birdsongs
memories
sunrays
sometimes what i want to say isn't apparent through what you just see(:
Thursday, August 24, 2006
misunderstood again, and possibly misunderstanding
misunderstood again, and possibly misunderstandingfreak it. why are all the people that are pissed with me are only pissed because of...foolish...misunderstandings? im sorry, but i dont dare to use certain words anymore.maybe why im pissed with everyone im pissed with is just because of more misunderstandings.
i dont know what to say anymore.
i really dont.
because i dont even know if anyone will even listen to what im trying to say.
just shut up jiaying. you cant be heard over the rain.and you know it. 7:59 pm
i need an umbrella.
i need an umbrella. i promised not to say anything. i wont. but my tears are still silently falling. will this rain ever stop? i dont know. all i know is, it's pouring now. and i'll never be able to face the sunshine again. 7:54 pm
Sunday, August 20, 2006
misunderstood.
misunderstood.everything's my fault. why dont you try being me for a while? why cant you just understand that i have my problems too? was i destined to be your scapegoat? was i destined to take the blame for everything that goes wrong? or maybe the only problems you think are problems are your own. well they're not. too bad.or maybe it's just me. why are you such a freak jiaying. everyone hates you. 8:51 pm
who says fridays are unlucky?
who says fridays are unlucky?hehheh this was from friday but since i dont have the freedom to use the comp everyday so..
anw friday was rly great. so many funny things happened. nine actl. 1. during recess mich and charisse were actl not doing anything weird. then on the way back to class charisse suddenly started trying to poke mich or tickle her (mich is EXTREMELY ticklish. try yourself if you dont believe me) so mich started shrieking like mad, and in the end those two ended up walking (okay squirming is more like it) up to class in an armlock. 2. and they looked so hilarious bao sam and i started laughing like xiao. and it didnt help that mich sounds really funny when she shrieks. then since we were running late we left them behind, but amazingly you could still hear mich screaming and charisse laughing. then mich screamed rly loud, and bao laughed so hard she fell down the stairs xD hohoho. 3. then basically nothing else funny happened, until thong tried to switch on the aircon. most ppl in my class are lazy – they cant be bothered to take the remote out of the bracket, so they just switch on the aircon with the remote still in the bracket. so thong tried to just press the 'on' button, but then only the aircon directly on top switched on. thn she got pissed and tried to switch on the other aircon. it switched on, but thn the first aircon switched off. thn when she tried to turn the first aircon on again the second one switched off. and it went on for quite a while hahas.4. whee. then me [yong] ruoxi yingling and liangsi were going for jap. the bus only had seats for two ppl, so we decided to wait for the nxt one. thn whee the whole of our jap class ended up on the same bus!! we took up the entire back row and two more pairs of seats. [okay nicole[lin] and liangsi i shant say what you did here. although i still think it was rly mean la.] the first time [probably] that everyone in any moelc class were on the same bus and sitting tgr some more. 5. thn we ate lunch tgr too. except [wang] ruoxi and yunhan who went to class as usual. hehheh on the bus we decided that nicole [lin] was gna buy lunch for the whole class. so she had to chiong dwn the bus steps, beat the crowds and tell the uncle that she wanted like 7 cups of instant noodles. i swear the uncle couldn't believe his ears. 6. by the time everyone finished eating, we were running late alr, so we all rushed to class. thn we saw sensei just coming down the stairs, so everyone ran like super fast to class. thn we saw ruoxi and yunhan sitting outside cos the classrm door was locked and we hurried up and joined them. and since we appeared like we all arrived on time, when sensei came to the class we all AHEM-ed her like rly loud. thn she acted blur and went 'what?' in this 'im innocent' manner. hehheh. 7. anyway gloria brought this balloon to class. she says she got it from the physics lab cos they were doing the balloon experiment and she drew a really nice rainbow and flowers and some quotes on it. but thn, a while into class, the balloon burst. and it gave sensei such a big shock she practically jumped. whee~ 8. thn sensei was trying to teach us new grammar patterns. but she started off wrongly. she went 'imagine you had a japanese friend that was coming to singapore.' which sounded amazingly like the chi pt, and resulted in the entire class moaning about their pts, wan ting taking out her brochure, everyone staring at it and moaning about how nice it was and basically the class was in chaos. 9. thn sensei said smth [cannt remember wat] '...im sure you ppl are very free right!' thn nicole sd 'our lives revolve arnd school only you know.' and just during ld sixuan sd 'our lives dont just revolve arnd school', which sent the class into another laughing fit.
hohoho. if only every day was like that. or at least all jap lessons. haha j2d rocks! (:by the way siling if you're reading this im HAPPY! (:so dont say all my posts are sad. xD 6:40 pm
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
friendship? i dont think so.
friendship? i dont think so. so much for being a friend. you dont even care, do you? when you're nice you only do what i do to everyone i consider a friend/acquaintance. when you're really terrible, like you were, you dont even care. maybe you never did from the start. im sorry if you did. it just doesnt feel as though you did.all i asked from you was to do what i did for you the other day. is it that difficult?so you heard me wrongly. is it my fault? am i supposed to put up with your tantrums?and who wouldn't be irritated after trying to explain what they wanted at least 3 times to you? im sorry. im not perfect. i dont even feel that i fit to your personality at all now. but i guess i must thank you for something -- you made me sieve through those that i thought were friends. those that i thought were worth sacrificing something for. and i must say, i found a few people that i dont think deserve my friendship anymore. thanks also for completely spoiling my otherwise great day.sigh i guess we really have year problems, yearmates. unrelated to abovementioned person though. (: we need to have a year talk soon. 10:52 pm
Sunday, August 13, 2006
the power of love...
the power of love...the power of words is strong. the power of unsaid words is even stronger. but unsaid, indescribable love wields the most power. why on earth are you given the power to affect me so much? do you realise just how empty a void you've left in my life? i still cant get over your not being here any more...and i probably wont for a very long time.
i cant stop thinking of you. i cant stop missing you. i cant stop wishing time would pause and flow backwards. cos i cant stop loving you. sighh... 9:30 pm
Saturday, August 12, 2006
there you'll be...
there you'll be...forever in my heart, my soul, my very life.
i'll be glad cause i was blessed to get, to have you in my life
i am. truly blessed with your presence and guidance, without which we'd never have come so far.
in my dreams i'll always see you soar above the skies
because you truly spread your wings and flew. because you soared so high you were way up there, far above the clouds. be they grey, be they white, be the sky cloudless, you were always shining there. you never faltered. you showed us the way.
in my heart there'll always be a place for you for all my life
you totally changed me. you set the bearing for the course of my life. you set it so, it has never been any better for all my [almost] fourteen years. you pointed me in the right direction, and brought me here, to a place i never will regret being in. you brought me to paradise. you gave me the reason to stay.
you gave me so much, how can you not have a permanent place in my heart?
i'll keep a part of you with me
thank you so much ma'ams. the least i can do for you is to keep your memory alive in my soul, now and forever.
chloe says we should stop being emo le. i agree actl. even though it still hurts. even though it hurts like it's the end of the world. even though the hurt kills.
but there you'll be, forever in my heart, my soul, my life.
aishiteru.
permission never to forget you ma'ams.
permission to always remember our time together ma'ams.
permission to love you ma'ams, for the longest time i can. And everywhere I am there you'll be
Well, you showed me how it feels,
to feel the sky within my reach
And I always will remember all,
the strength you gave to me
Your love made me make it through,
oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me
In my dreams I'll always see you soar above the skies
In my heart there'll always be a place for you, for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me,
And everywhere I am there you'll be 10:42 pm
Thursday, August 10, 2006
im still blue.
im still blue.sighh. chalet withdrawal symptoms. quote huiqi: "maybe it isnt just as simple as chalet withdrawal symptoms." i really cant believe that just 8 months + ago i was totally hating myself for choosing to stay in redcross. i cant believe that i was so pissed with the ma'ams for scolding us for what seemed like the tiniest things. all those complaints seem so...superficial now. all the scoldings and punishments seemed so unreasonable then, but now i realise if it wasnt for all of them we'd never be where we are today. and then there was training camp. i think it was really training camp that revealed the true rgsrcy spirit. everyone just sacrificed everything so we could be on time, so the i/c wouldn't kena scolding. it was tough, i agree, but if it wasnt so tough it would never have brought out the best in everyone. especially me. thank you ma'ams. you're the only reason why i've stayed in redcross, the only reason why im here today. and because you made me stay, you've also given me my wonderful yearmates, and the bestest seniors anyone can ask for. cause you truly made me shine, you never gave up on us no matter how shibai we were, you were always there for us. thank you thank you ma'ams. thank you so much for all you've given us. then there was talentime. i really can't imagine how badly we'd have done without all your being there for us. and especially giving us support for dance. you came down every single prac just to give comments and telling us we could do it we just needed more time. and even when we didnt win anything for trad dance you just said we'd make a real comeback next year. we really appreciate everything you've done for us ma'ams. we promised you we'd try again and again for talentime next year and believe me, we will try our best. even if it means sacrificing our entire holiday. cause we just truly truly truly truly truly truly truly truly love you ma'ams. why did you have to go ma'ams??
how are we supposed to continue without you leading??im really scared to be year 3. i guess all of us are too, yearmates. i try to think of myself as a sec 3 ma'am, with all the juniors looking to me for advice and stuff. i cant picture it. i have that feeling im just gonna screw everything up the day im the i/c and kena scolded for everything i do. maybe all of us feel that way. maybe all we have to do is just work extra hard to pull our standard up. but for now i really can't imagine us as year 3. but we can't let the ma'ams down. we can't. i used to wish i could get out asap. i thank God that i never quit. that i stayed. that i don't, and never will, regret joining redcross. because rgsrcy is my life. i still remember cca orientation. i was telling myself, im so not going to join a uniformed group. never, not in my entire life. and then there was options. redcross was my 3rd choice. sometimes i wonder how could i put redcross as third. cause i know, if you let me fill up that form again, that redcross would be at the very top. and i would write it in caps with exclamation marks after it, if i could. really, rgsrcy is my life. how could i survive without it i really dont know. it gave me yearmates that would listen to all your problems, even if everyone else in the world couldn't be bothered to. it gave me seniors that helped us even if they had their own stuff to do. and they helped us before they helped themselves. would i be able to do that for my juniors? it's really hard to try and bond as such a big year. 28 of us. and 44 last year. i dont know how we would have got so bonded without training camp, without ttime, without the ma'ams. basically without everything and everyone in redcross. and as a year we'll go through all the storms, as a year we'll share our joys, as a year we'll wipe each other's tears away. yearmates, you guys really rock. all 27 of you. i love you jane juanmin hweefang yunhan weiwei joan siling adeline jiayan junru cherie wangruoxi gohhong nicolelin liangsi esther fiona huiqi evon yingling yongruoxi chloe nicolechen joyce fangyi & gwen. im not so blue anymore...cos we know we won't let ourselves disappoint the ma'ams. we'll live up to the the rgsrcy legacy. and life is a road that i wanna keep goinglove is a river that i wanna keep flowinglife is a road, now and forevera wonderful journey i'll be there when the world stops turningi'll be there when the storm is throughand in the end i wanna be standingat the beginning with youi really really want to go back in time, so i can appreciate all my time in redcross with you. cause my secone year was wasted hating you. 8:17 pm
love, us :'(
love, usI never knew how much I missed out when I left. I never knew how things went after I left pop chalet with nicole. it was only afterwards then I realised the intensity of the sadness and heartbreak, the tears, and all the memories.
all I just want to say is i'll miss you ma'ams, and I'll always love you.
im sorry I couldn't be at the concert. then again, I might just have ruined everything if I was there. I knew I couldn't trust myself not to cry halfway through our year items. even during our rehearsals I was already close to tears. it's just hard to put that feeling in words, when people that have made a great difference in your life are leaving, and you never realised what they've done for you until now, when it might be too late to even say you love them.
"we read a note our seniors wrote, back in twenty zero five
it really deeply touched our hearts, and we read it once again.
We thought,hey, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
we all dint like redcross none, but the ma'ams all loved us so.
we had this crazy plan to quit and run away together
get enrolled in the first thing we came to, and stay forever
but taped to the board where we were supposed to meet, instead
we found this letter, and this is what it said:
if you wanna leave before we do, we won't give up on you
we'll meet you when you persevere through;we don't know how long it'll be.
but just don't let us down, hey just try and see
and between now and then, till we see you again
we'll be loving you.
Love, us.
we read these words just hours before, our seniors passed out
in the doorway of our school, where me and yearmates stopped to wave
we thought we'd never see them cry in all our redcross years;
but as we said these words to them, their eyes filled up with tears
when you pass out before we do, don't give up on us
we'll meet you when our years are through;we dont know how long we'll be
but we're not gonna let you down, ma'ams just wait and see
and btwn now and then, till we see you again, we'll be loving you.
Love, us
and btwn now and then, till we see you again, we'll be loving you.
Love, us."
after cac I thought the ma'ams wouldn't ever forgive us. it's only now that I realise they wlil always forgive us for all the things we've done wrong. it's just that we really disappointed them, after all the late nights they stayed up for us.
all the things they did for us, their effort to bring the unit to greater heights, the support they've shown us, all these I can't describe in words. I wish I could tell them just how thankful we are for their love too. but it's impossible, we owe them so much for where we are today. I just hope that they can feel our gratitude and sincerity.
now we're year 3. our year is far from perfect – we definitely have much room for improvement. and we're the most senior juniors in the unit already. im scared. we have to command all our juniors already. we only have to say "thank you ma'ams" when we leave after trainings. no more "thank you sec4 ma'ams, thank you sec3 ma'ams". i wish i could rewind time. but time moves on...time to buck up yearmates. year 3'07 can do it. we can't fail as seniors, we owe that, at least, to the ma'ams. we'll work even harder, and that's a promise.
time to start living up to my post as asst rcv mistress.
rgsrcy year 2'06
dream. aim. work. fly 2 greater heights get it? and between now and then, till we see you again, we'll be loving you.Love, us. 1:39 pm
Thursday, August 24, 2006
misunderstood again, and possibly misunderstanding misunderstood again, and possibly misunderstandingfreak it. why are all the people that are pissed with me are only pissed because of...foolish...misunderstandings? im sorry, but i dont dare to use certain words anymore.maybe why im pissed with everyone im pissed with is just because of more misunderstandings.
i dont know what to say anymore.
i really dont.
because i dont even know if anyone will even listen to what im trying to say.
just shut up jiaying. you cant be heard over the rain.and you know it.
i need an umbrella. i need an umbrella. i promised not to say anything. i wont. but my tears are still silently falling. will this rain ever stop? i dont know. all i know is, it's pouring now. and i'll never be able to face the sunshine again.
Sunday, August 20, 2006
misunderstood. misunderstood.everything's my fault. why dont you try being me for a while? why cant you just understand that i have my problems too? was i destined to be your scapegoat? was i destined to take the blame for everything that goes wrong? or maybe the only problems you think are problems are your own. well they're not. too bad.or maybe it's just me. why are you such a freak jiaying. everyone hates you.
who says fridays are unlucky? who says fridays are unlucky?hehheh this was from friday but since i dont have the freedom to use the comp everyday so..
anw friday was rly great. so many funny things happened. nine actl. 1. during recess mich and charisse were actl not doing anything weird. then on the way back to class charisse suddenly started trying to poke mich or tickle her (mich is EXTREMELY ticklish. try yourself if you dont believe me) so mich started shrieking like mad, and in the end those two ended up walking (okay squirming is more like it) up to class in an armlock. 2. and they looked so hilarious bao sam and i started laughing like xiao. and it didnt help that mich sounds really funny when she shrieks. then since we were running late we left them behind, but amazingly you could still hear mich screaming and charisse laughing. then mich screamed rly loud, and bao laughed so hard she fell down the stairs xD hohoho. 3. then basically nothing else funny happened, until thong tried to switch on the aircon. most ppl in my class are lazy – they cant be bothered to take the remote out of the bracket, so they just switch on the aircon with the remote still in the bracket. so thong tried to just press the 'on' button, but then only the aircon directly on top switched on. thn she got pissed and tried to switch on the other aircon. it switched on, but thn the first aircon switched off. thn when she tried to turn the first aircon on again the second one switched off. and it went on for quite a while hahas.4. whee. then me [yong] ruoxi yingling and liangsi were going for jap. the bus only had seats for two ppl, so we decided to wait for the nxt one. thn whee the whole of our jap class ended up on the same bus!! we took up the entire back row and two more pairs of seats. [okay nicole[lin] and liangsi i shant say what you did here. although i still think it was rly mean la.] the first time [probably] that everyone in any moelc class were on the same bus and sitting tgr some more. 5. thn we ate lunch tgr too. except [wang] ruoxi and yunhan who went to class as usual. hehheh on the bus we decided that nicole [lin] was gna buy lunch for the whole class. so she had to chiong dwn the bus steps, beat the crowds and tell the uncle that she wanted like 7 cups of instant noodles. i swear the uncle couldn't believe his ears. 6. by the time everyone finished eating, we were running late alr, so we all rushed to class. thn we saw sensei just coming down the stairs, so everyone ran like super fast to class. thn we saw ruoxi and yunhan sitting outside cos the classrm door was locked and we hurried up and joined them. and since we appeared like we all arrived on time, when sensei came to the class we all AHEM-ed her like rly loud. thn she acted blur and went 'what?' in this 'im innocent' manner. hehheh. 7. anyway gloria brought this balloon to class. she says she got it from the physics lab cos they were doing the balloon experiment and she drew a really nice rainbow and flowers and some quotes on it. but thn, a while into class, the balloon burst. and it gave sensei such a big shock she practically jumped. whee~ 8. thn sensei was trying to teach us new grammar patterns. but she started off wrongly. she went 'imagine you had a japanese friend that was coming to singapore.' which sounded amazingly like the chi pt, and resulted in the entire class moaning about their pts, wan ting taking out her brochure, everyone staring at it and moaning about how nice it was and basically the class was in chaos. 9. thn sensei said smth [cannt remember wat] '...im sure you ppl are very free right!' thn nicole sd 'our lives revolve arnd school only you know.' and just during ld sixuan sd 'our lives dont just revolve arnd school', which sent the class into another laughing fit.
hohoho. if only every day was like that. or at least all jap lessons. haha j2d rocks! (:by the way siling if you're reading this im HAPPY! (:so dont say all my posts are sad. xD
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
friendship? i dont think so. friendship? i dont think so. so much for being a friend. you dont even care, do you? when you're nice you only do what i do to everyone i consider a friend/acquaintance. when you're really terrible, like you were, you dont even care. maybe you never did from the start. im sorry if you did. it just doesnt feel as though you did.all i asked from you was to do what i did for you the other day. is it that difficult?so you heard me wrongly. is it my fault? am i supposed to put up with your tantrums?and who wouldn't be irritated after trying to explain what they wanted at least 3 times to you? im sorry. im not perfect. i dont even feel that i fit to your personality at all now. but i guess i must thank you for something -- you made me sieve through those that i thought were friends. those that i thought were worth sacrificing something for. and i must say, i found a few people that i dont think deserve my friendship anymore. thanks also for completely spoiling my otherwise great day.sigh i guess we really have year problems, yearmates. unrelated to abovementioned person though. (: we need to have a year talk soon.
Sunday, August 13, 2006
the power of love... the power of love...the power of words is strong. the power of unsaid words is even stronger. but unsaid, indescribable love wields the most power. why on earth are you given the power to affect me so much? do you realise just how empty a void you've left in my life? i still cant get over your not being here any more...and i probably wont for a very long time.
i cant stop thinking of you. i cant stop missing you. i cant stop wishing time would pause and flow backwards. cos i cant stop loving you. sighh...
Saturday, August 12, 2006
there you'll be... there you'll be...forever in my heart, my soul, my very life.
i'll be glad cause i was blessed to get, to have you in my life
i am. truly blessed with your presence and guidance, without which we'd never have come so far.
in my dreams i'll always see you soar above the skies
because you truly spread your wings and flew. because you soared so high you were way up there, far above the clouds. be they grey, be they white, be the sky cloudless, you were always shining there. you never faltered. you showed us the way.
in my heart there'll always be a place for you for all my life
you totally changed me. you set the bearing for the course of my life. you set it so, it has never been any better for all my [almost] fourteen years. you pointed me in the right direction, and brought me here, to a place i never will regret being in. you brought me to paradise. you gave me the reason to stay.
you gave me so much, how can you not have a permanent place in my heart?
i'll keep a part of you with me
thank you so much ma'ams. the least i can do for you is to keep your memory alive in my soul, now and forever.
chloe says we should stop being emo le. i agree actl. even though it still hurts. even though it hurts like it's the end of the world. even though the hurt kills.
but there you'll be, forever in my heart, my soul, my life.
aishiteru.
permission never to forget you ma'ams.
permission to always remember our time together ma'ams.
permission to love you ma'ams, for the longest time i can. And everywhere I am there you'll be
Well, you showed me how it feels,
to feel the sky within my reach
And I always will remember all,
the strength you gave to me
Your love made me make it through,
oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me
In my dreams I'll always see you soar above the skies
In my heart there'll always be a place for you, for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me,
And everywhere I am there you'll be
Thursday, August 10, 2006
im still blue. im still blue.sighh. chalet withdrawal symptoms. quote huiqi: "maybe it isnt just as simple as chalet withdrawal symptoms." i really cant believe that just 8 months + ago i was totally hating myself for choosing to stay in redcross. i cant believe that i was so pissed with the ma'ams for scolding us for what seemed like the tiniest things. all those complaints seem so...superficial now. all the scoldings and punishments seemed so unreasonable then, but now i realise if it wasnt for all of them we'd never be where we are today. and then there was training camp. i think it was really training camp that revealed the true rgsrcy spirit. everyone just sacrificed everything so we could be on time, so the i/c wouldn't kena scolding. it was tough, i agree, but if it wasnt so tough it would never have brought out the best in everyone. especially me. thank you ma'ams. you're the only reason why i've stayed in redcross, the only reason why im here today. and because you made me stay, you've also given me my wonderful yearmates, and the bestest seniors anyone can ask for. cause you truly made me shine, you never gave up on us no matter how shibai we were, you were always there for us. thank you thank you ma'ams. thank you so much for all you've given us. then there was talentime. i really can't imagine how badly we'd have done without all your being there for us. and especially giving us support for dance. you came down every single prac just to give comments and telling us we could do it we just needed more time. and even when we didnt win anything for trad dance you just said we'd make a real comeback next year. we really appreciate everything you've done for us ma'ams. we promised you we'd try again and again for talentime next year and believe me, we will try our best. even if it means sacrificing our entire holiday. cause we just truly truly truly truly truly truly truly truly love you ma'ams. why did you have to go ma'ams??
how are we supposed to continue without you leading??im really scared to be year 3. i guess all of us are too, yearmates. i try to think of myself as a sec 3 ma'am, with all the juniors looking to me for advice and stuff. i cant picture it. i have that feeling im just gonna screw everything up the day im the i/c and kena scolded for everything i do. maybe all of us feel that way. maybe all we have to do is just work extra hard to pull our standard up. but for now i really can't imagine us as year 3. but we can't let the ma'ams down. we can't. i used to wish i could get out asap. i thank God that i never quit. that i stayed. that i don't, and never will, regret joining redcross. because rgsrcy is my life. i still remember cca orientation. i was telling myself, im so not going to join a uniformed group. never, not in my entire life. and then there was options. redcross was my 3rd choice. sometimes i wonder how could i put redcross as third. cause i know, if you let me fill up that form again, that redcross would be at the very top. and i would write it in caps with exclamation marks after it, if i could. really, rgsrcy is my life. how could i survive without it i really dont know. it gave me yearmates that would listen to all your problems, even if everyone else in the world couldn't be bothered to. it gave me seniors that helped us even if they had their own stuff to do. and they helped us before they helped themselves. would i be able to do that for my juniors? it's really hard to try and bond as such a big year. 28 of us. and 44 last year. i dont know how we would have got so bonded without training camp, without ttime, without the ma'ams. basically without everything and everyone in redcross. and as a year we'll go through all the storms, as a year we'll share our joys, as a year we'll wipe each other's tears away. yearmates, you guys really rock. all 27 of you. i love you jane juanmin hweefang yunhan weiwei joan siling adeline jiayan junru cherie wangruoxi gohhong nicolelin liangsi esther fiona huiqi evon yingling yongruoxi chloe nicolechen joyce fangyi & gwen. im not so blue anymore...cos we know we won't let ourselves disappoint the ma'ams. we'll live up to the the rgsrcy legacy. and life is a road that i wanna keep goinglove is a river that i wanna keep flowinglife is a road, now and forevera wonderful journey i'll be there when the world stops turningi'll be there when the storm is throughand in the end i wanna be standingat the beginning with youi really really want to go back in time, so i can appreciate all my time in redcross with you. cause my secone year was wasted hating you.
love, us :'( love, usI never knew how much I missed out when I left. I never knew how things went after I left pop chalet with nicole. it was only afterwards then I realised the intensity of the sadness and heartbreak, the tears, and all the memories.
all I just want to say is i'll miss you ma'ams, and I'll always love you.
im sorry I couldn't be at the concert. then again, I might just have ruined everything if I was there. I knew I couldn't trust myself not to cry halfway through our year items. even during our rehearsals I was already close to tears. it's just hard to put that feeling in words, when people that have made a great difference in your life are leaving, and you never realised what they've done for you until now, when it might be too late to even say you love them.
"we read a note our seniors wrote, back in twenty zero five
it really deeply touched our hearts, and we read it once again.
We thought,hey, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
we all dint like redcross none, but the ma'ams all loved us so.
we had this crazy plan to quit and run away together
get enrolled in the first thing we came to, and stay forever
but taped to the board where we were supposed to meet, instead
we found this letter, and this is what it said:
if you wanna leave before we do, we won't give up on you
we'll meet you when you persevere through;we don't know how long it'll be.
but just don't let us down, hey just try and see
and between now and then, till we see you again
we'll be loving you.
Love, us.
we read these words just hours before, our seniors passed out
in the doorway of our school, where me and yearmates stopped to wave
we thought we'd never see them cry in all our redcross years;
but as we said these words to them, their eyes filled up with tears
when you pass out before we do, don't give up on us
we'll meet you when our years are through;we dont know how long we'll be
but we're not gonna let you down, ma'ams just wait and see
and btwn now and then, till we see you again, we'll be loving you.
Love, us
and btwn now and then, till we see you again, we'll be loving you.
Love, us."
after cac I thought the ma'ams wouldn't ever forgive us. it's only now that I realise they wlil always forgive us for all the things we've done wrong. it's just that we really disappointed them, after all the late nights they stayed up for us.
all the things they did for us, their effort to bring the unit to greater heights, the support they've shown us, all these I can't describe in words. I wish I could tell them just how thankful we are for their love too. but it's impossible, we owe them so much for where we are today. I just hope that they can feel our gratitude and sincerity.
now we're year 3. our year is far from perfect – we definitely have much room for improvement. and we're the most senior juniors in the unit already. im scared. we have to command all our juniors already. we only have to say "thank you ma'ams" when we leave after trainings. no more "thank you sec4 ma'ams, thank you sec3 ma'ams". i wish i could rewind time. but time moves on...time to buck up yearmates. year 3'07 can do it. we can't fail as seniors, we owe that, at least, to the ma'ams. we'll work even harder, and that's a promise.
time to start living up to my post as asst rcv mistress.
rgsrcy year 2'06
dream. aim. work. fly 2 greater heights get it? and between now and then, till we see you again, we'll be loving you.Love, us.
i'm just the girl in the corner, the girl with the wistful eyes;
jiaying
seventeen! but that'll change on 220910 xD
rafflesian
113'05, 210'06, 315'07, 415'08 10S03P!
redcrosser passed out;
tribunist [vchair yay :D] said farewell;
but i'll never forget those days(:
archer! :D
still a writer, yep.
save me...
absolutely deranged
chocoholic
shopaholic
complete psychotic
stress-hater
panicky [i'm serious.]
unfortunately, more often than not, a broken rose.
... before i drive myself mad.
je t'aime;
rgsrcy
tribune
rj archery!
writers' guild!
reading! xD
dancing <3!
singing
going on facebook and playing random games there HAHA
grand pianos [oh, nothing beats a grand!]
black; pink; chocolate brown :D
astronomy; knitting; archeryyy(:
pool; bridge; mahjong! xD
chemistry! [favourite subject (:]
needless to say, we must never leave out the two essences of life, chocolate and shopping! i can never do without
them hahaha(x
for all life is a dream, and dreams themselves are only dreams;
ra science nahh no chance alr. but nevermind(:
>3.6 gpa [HAHA YES I DID IT FOR SECTHREE!(:]
tribune chair vchair's good enough. and in any case, my term's over anyway.
>3.6 SECFOUR gpa! YES I DID IT AGAIN! :D
rj chem ra! thank God i got in! :D
or uwc nordic! didn't apply; decided that specialising in sciences was the wiser choice, given my inaptitude
for humanities ><
rj dance! street/intl also can :D :Dbut nevermind, because rj archery pwns all now!
not forgetting the typical wish for world peace, duh. (:
and i wish i could have him. or at least, if we're not meant to be, someone to love
and to love me back. &it's true that love ends up being a battlefield sometimes, but it's still love; blessed
love.
for we were meant to last forever;
i find my paradise when you look me in the eyes-
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